Bikini Bashful

Well, I guess since I've put it out to the universe that one of my 2010 goals is to wear a bikini in Maui, I suppose I have to go find myself one. Time is running out and I'm definitely crapping myself because the good old bod just isn't where I'd like it to be to feel good about exposing it. I know, I know....people always say that there are bodies out on the beach that shouldn't be allowed to be viewed in public and no one will even notice. I'm a bashful little Asian lady though! I was joking around that when I see people I'm going to sidle up to them from an angle, so I look slimmer. Ha ha!

I was checking out some styles and I think something like the pic above is what I'm looking for...a slightly higher cut bottom to hide the stomach pooch, a top that is fuller to lift those 40 year old boobies so they're as perky as a teenager's. I was going to jam out and wear my tankini...but that's kinda cheating so I'm gonna go for the gusto - midriff must be bared, dammit! I kinda like the skirt on this one too, as it'll hide that nasty difficult area where my chub rub is. And - for those who know me well - did you notice that it's not black? I always wear black so I'm breaking out of my comfort zone. Well, that and I'm hoping the pattern might draw people's eyes away from my jiggling belly.





In a teeny tiny way I'm kind of excited - it might be liberating and I'm hoping it will push me past my insecurities. Kind of like jumping out of a plane to kill a fear of heights, right?

And no - I will not be posting pictures! In fact, no pictures will be taken of this event...y'all are just gonna have to take my word for it. Three more weeks to go to get myself in shape!